I suppose I should always begin any Fifty Shades of Grey related posts with a warning about spoilers. Hopefully I haven’t ruined anything for anyone so far! So I will begin by saying not to read any further if you have not finished at least the first book and first portion of the second book…but I hope you’ll return and visit once you’ve completed your reading!
But, if you have already made that much progress, you will undoubtedly remember the upsetting ending to Fifty Shades of Grey…and if you were like me, it was impossible not to immediately start reading Fifty Shades Darker after finishing the first book!
There are a couple of reasons why I really wanted to try my hand at recreating this scene in an illustration. First, it was a very welcome end to the extreme sadness and heartache both Ana and Christian were experiencing. So, it was nice to depict a moment of reunion and overwhelming emotions. Second, it was interesting (and I have to admit, a bit amusing) that Christian lost all self-control, which manifested itself in his impromptu decision for a liaison in the alley with Ana!
Both Ana and Christian deeply missed each other and were both miserable, so it was quite fortunate that José’s art show forced them together again. Luckily it gave them the opportunity to realize that a few misunderstandings contributed to their parting. Sure, there were plenty of other complicated issues to iron out between them, but the largest looming issues regarding their last time together could have been prevented by simply uttering a safe word.
After a bit of tip-toeing around each other and a bit off small talk, the realization that their parting most likely could have been prevented opened a line of communication between them. But it was not all constructive communication, however. Lots of frustrations that had been developing and simmering became ammunition as Ana and Christian fired verbal attacks at each other–albeit discretely–inside the art gallery.
While initially Ana may have felt a bit at fault for the misunderstanding their last night together, soon she was becoming irritated by Christian’s usual bossy behavior. So, when Christian announced that it was time to leave despite Ana’s protests, she made sure she would not leave without putting up a fight of sorts.
By being physically affectionate as she said her goodbyes to José, she was knowingly provoking Christian’s intense jealousy by hugging Jose and being playful with him inside the gallery. You could perhaps even say that Ana was, in effect, engaging Christian in a form of bondage of her own! She knew he would be upset, but also knew he would not protest or show his displeasure while inside the art gallery with all the people attending the show. (after leaving the location and distancing themselves from everyone, is an entirely different story, I’m sure!) So basically, Ana was, in effect, topping from the bottom!
This act of defiance added yet more to the jumble of emotions Christian was wrestling with since their parting. Emotions that he had taught himself to suppress…but which was no longer possible since Ana entered his life. Since the night Ana departed Escala, he had felt immense longing, sadness, frustration, just to name a few. But when Ana deliberately provoked him with her display with José, emotions had now completely overtaken him.
It was actually quite amusing that she got Christian so worked up that he exhibited an uncharacteristic lack of self-control. He could barely contain himself and rushed her into the alley just in time. At least he had enough self-control to wait until they were out of view from any unwanted prying eyes outside the art gallery! Although, he did resort to settling on a rather gritty environment. Not the usual choice from what we know of Mr. Grey.
Conflicting emotions of anger and desire overwhelmed him, but he was also most likely feeling so elated to finally have her near and feeling the pull they both had on each other. Something Ana was also feeling quite strongly. The multitude of conflicting emotions both of them were experiencing could no longer be contained and marked the instant they began their journey together once again.