Before reading any further, if you haven’t yet finished Fifty Shades of Grey or the first portion of Fifty Shades Darker, then you might want to stop now…but be sure to come back once you’ve finished! 😉 I know I would hate to stumble upon any spoilers, so I want to make sure that everyone is forewarned!
However, if you have completed the first and maybe even the second book of the trilogy (and let’s face it, the way the first book ends It’s nearly impossible not to start Darker immediately!) then you are aware that all is not well between Christian and Ana. At the close of Fifty Shades of Grey and as Fifty Shades Darker begins, we learn of the aftermath of Ana leaving Christian and the immense pain and confusion Ana felt as she returned to her apartment.
But, Christian’s experiences were never really revealed. Sure, little bits of information (and lies) were mentioned by Elena, and even a bit by Christian himself, but nothing very descriptive. So, I thought a bit about it and decided to try to depict one instance from the day Ana left.
Although both were devastated at that moment, the pull they felt toward each other remained, even though on the surface they felt they both needed different things from each other to make the relationship work. This added confusion for sure, but both of them probably felt deep down inside that things were not yet completely over…probably more so for Christian…
First I imagined that after standing there stunned and staring at the closed elevator doors for a few moments, Christian began to aimlessly wander about Escala as his mind raced at what had just occurred between the two of them. Like Ana, it was probably a mix of emotions for him: still processing the shock and loss, the confusion of the emotions he was not used to feeling, and probably realizing he was in love for the first time yet at the same moment also realizing that he had also lost the first and only woman he has truly loved. In fact, as we learned later, the trauma of that day actually acted as a catalyst in bringing about even more significant changes to the way Christian chose to deal with conflict in his life, and to reconsider the ways he had thought best to protect himself from harm of various types.
But since Christian Grey is a stranger to failure and giving up is never an option in his universe, I’m sure that even though he was experiencing a sense of loss and in was deep emotional pain, in the back of his mind he was already planning a strategy to get her back. Maybe never even doubting that the situation wasn’t as dire as it seemed at first glance.
So, as he continued to make his way through Escala, eventually he would most likely end up in his bedroom and notice something on the bed. That is when he would discover the modeling kit and note Ana had left him–an unexpected parting gift. I imagined Christian staring at the note for quite some time. The first few minutes surrendering to the feelings of loss and how her note made the parting seem more final. But, soon his usual controlled and logical nature would return. He would carefully process the situation, and assess different ways to bring Ana back to him. Even though it had only been a short time since she had left him, I’m sure Christian was not going to give up that easily and was already laying basic plans on how to get her to return. Sure, it might be delusional for most people in the same situation, but we’re talking about Christian Grey here, and he always gets what he wants! 😉
By the time he had taken up the task of assembling the model so he could proudly display the thoughtful, yet bittersweet gift, I’m sure Christian already had several contingency plans in place. Lucky for him, all it took was a phone call and an offer of a ride to José’s art show!